Fall in love as often as possible.
maybe today is the day I just decide to be okay.
and that doesn’t mean permanently, perhaps it just means more consistently than I am now.
maybe I make the conscious decision for myself and for my own happiness, not for anybody else. but because I deserve happiness and I am in charge of creating that for myself.
it’s important that I remind myself of these things.
it’s important that I realize these things.
i am a constant work in progress
there will be weeks, months, phases where i feel as if i’m drowning.
there’s nobody who will move me out other than me.
standing at the beginning of a period of change is the hardest part. i’ve realized a change is needed, i’ve identified steps to take, and all that lies ahead is the actual implementation and the knowledge that while awareness is a step forward it is not enough.
nothing happens unless it is moved forward by some force. time is certainly a force, but in nature its primary responsibility is to move decomposition forward. rotting. decay.
i will not rot in my own uncertainty, i will not flounder in search of some external force. i will not allow my hunger to decompose in its stillness. i will not watch the hours decay as i sit inactive. success comes from within. creation comes from within.